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A Series of Unfortunate Events. Ace Attorney. Code Geass. Disney. Durarara!!. Final Fantasy. Good Omens. Gundam Wing. Harry Potter. His Dark Materials. Homestuck. House of Leaves. Katekyo Hitman Reborn!. Kingdom Hearts. Loveless. Neon Genesis Evangelion. No.6. Percy Jackson. Sailor Moon. The Wizard of Oz. Yugioh!.

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8 hours ago with 1,843 notes
#harry potter
Reasons I Love Sirius Black


This is small version of the novel-length in-depth post I shall someday undoubtedly write. It’s one part love, one part headcanon, and one part stringent defense.

  • He came from an aristocratic pureblood family with centuries of deep-rooted prejudice who enjoyed killing,…
1 week ago with 11,952 notes
#or mostly the majestic critique of a truly awful excuse for journalism
#I lol'd





a man wrote an article about this mysterious new Fan Fiction craze, and oh boy did we all learn a lot from it.

Here is the link, if anyone wants to read the whole thing and you wiLL NoT BE DISSAPOInTED


even better than reading the article is reading how carefully, concisely, respectfully and perfectly it is ripped apart in the comments.

1 month ago with 5,007 notes
#kill la kill
#rape tw
#assault tw
Why Kill la Kill is Bad for Women (And Everyone in General)


I try to be as fair and unbiased as possible when taking a look at controversial media (particularly media that is considered controversial for reasons related to sexism, sexual assault and rape) because it is an issue that is extremely close to me as both a victim of rape and,…

1 month ago with 45 notes
#kingdom hearts
#ship essay
How did you fall in love with SoRiku?



but whatever at least I enjoy talking about these dorks :’D

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1 month ago with 6 notes
#kingdom hearts
#on the other end of the seriousness spectrum is the LJ post replacing every instance of the word darkness with cock
#it's glorious

Yes, yes, a thousand times yes. You are going to screw up sometimes - everybody does - but what’s important is how you deal with it and what you do about it afterwards.

(I haven’t seen Frozen and don’t really care to, but Riku’s story and his darkness is a really good metaphor for mental health, especially depression. And not that it’s in the same category, but I’ve also seen Riku’s darkness argued as a metaphor for non-heterosexuality, too.) (also abusive relationships, if you include his dealings with Ansem)

1 month ago with 582 notes





Finding out what your new partner is comfortable with can be a bit tricky, least of all if you’re not used to being in a relationship. Sometimes you mess up, and it can be scary. Communicating, listening, and understanding is so important.

Carlos needs a bit more time to learn how to best communicate his thoughts and feelings, but that doesn’t mean he can’t set boundaries. It also doesn’t mean that Cecil will push him to do something he’s not comfortable with. I think they’d both be quite devastated if one ended up hurting the other.


I’ve been thinking about consent lately and how it seems to be considered optional in a lot of fics and even published works. Sometimes it even seems like it’s considered an obstacle, and a pairing where both participants actually want to be part of it can even be seen as boring.

I can’t wrap my head around that.

I’m not sure if this should be tagged for anything in particular. I do hope I don’t end up triggering someone, but if it does happen, I am so, so sorry and I won’t post something like this again.

I have so much respect for you as an artist, because not a lot of people are willing to portray moments like this, which ARE necessary for a healthy relationship.

I am so done with fan-fiction and even published work where these conversations don’t happen and people end up getting hurt. That should never be the norm, and we need more art like this.

We need more acceptance and openness when it comes to talking about boundaries, and it should be made VERY public that no, stop, and things of that nature should be listened to and respected no matter how they are said.

Yes the conversation can be awkward, and yes it can ruin the mood, but these conversations are extremely vital, and need to be had. Vice versa one should never not say no because they want their partner to be comfortable, and if the person won’t respect you for saying no that is not a relationship you need to be in.

Sorry for the rant things needed to be said.

Yes, it needs to be said. It’s one of the reasons why I made this. I’m also tired of fics where boundaries are ignored and handwaved, and I want to make some kind of change, however little it’ll do.

And not only should one always respect a no, or a stop, but it should be the norm that the absence of a no doesn’t mean yes.

Reblogging because commentary.

3 months ago with 5,650 notes
What is significant about fan fiction is that it often spins the kind of stories that showrunners wouldn’t think to tell, because fanficcers often come from a different demographic. The discomfort seems to be not that the shows are being reinterpreted by fans, but that they are being reinterpreted by the wrong sorts of fans - women, people of colour, queer kids, horny teenagers, people who are not professional writers, people who actually care about continuity (sorry). The proper way for cultural mythmaking to progress, it is implied, is for privileged men to recreate the works of privileged men from previous generations whilst everyone else listens quietly.
--- Sherlock and the Adventure of the Overzealous Fanbase by Laurie Penny (via cypress-tree)
4 months ago with 28 notes
#terezi pyrope



mhmm. personal feelings are tricky to navigate in fandom discussion. i have formulated my opinions by discussing stuff with several friends who have been victims of abuse tho! i dont really think its uh right to list a bunch of people as “credentials” tho so i am just gonna keep quiet about it haha

i considered just letting it slide, because there’s no need going all drama on this, 
but this is making me uncomfortable. 

i mean that’s the situation, right: you used “i have survivor friends who told me” as an argument for your opinions, and i said that actually this kind of thing - using survivors as arguments in discussions - is making me as survivor pretty uncomfortable and has for some time. 

i objected and tried to explain why i object: 

-> my survivor friends told me
okay, i’m sorry, this might take me a bit further away from the topic of gamzee, but this has been such a thing in fandom lately, and, i just - 
i don’t think it’s such a good idea to use ‘survivors of abuse’ as pro or contra argument for certain interpretations of canon, especially if it’s not yourself you’re talking about but ‘friends’. 

from what i can see, different survivors have very different and all equally valid opinions on the matter - both on gamzee and on the quality of hussie’s writing re: gamzee (and gamrezi) - since we’re all different people with different stories and different outlooks (obviously).

actually i might have seen more ‘allies’ telling people (including survivors) what to feel about gamzee and terezi because of ‘survivors of abuse’ than i’ve seen survivors talking about the situation, which i find upsetting. i even know survivors who found the way this was discussed in fandom to be so toxic that they rather said nothing, even though they had opinions and things to say, and who could be more qualified to talk about this than us, if we’re talking about ‘RL abuse survivors and how homestuck and homestuck meta makes them feel’, right? 

lots of stuff has been pushed in fandom after the last updates that i personally didn’t like either!

i do relate more to terezi than to gamzee in that situation (i mean obviously) and i didn’t like people saying it’s impossible that gamzee was vulnerable ever during that showdown (including in that short moment after mindcontrol release) and that he was always in full control and that terezi never was in control, and i resented being told that that’s the only valid and survivor-friendly reading, since i didn’t feel it did me much service. 

i also didn’t like the wrong use of the word “gaslighting”, since gaslighting is a specific term for a specific form of emotional abuse (systematically make a person believe they are “crazy”), and tricking someone into dropping their weapon is a very dirty fighting trick, but gaslighting is not the correct term and i don’t think that kind of misinformation about abuse people learn via fandom is helpful, ultimately, for abuse survivors. 

i also didn’t like at all how terezi going !!!! and “what have i done” was somehow not seen as terezi having a seer and justice moment there, but as terezi being scared of gamzee because he abused her (like hell she was scared, imo). 

people rooting for terezi when she stabbed gamzee and rooting for vengeance made me uncomfortable, because while i have had interesting discussions re: veangeance with survivors, homestuck fans going “you go terezi, stab him some more, he deserves it, lol” are not exactly the quality of discussion i crave there and i rarely felt people really were interested in talking about terezi’s feelings and situation anyway, so i didn’t feel supported or anything. 

so basically as you can see i have lots of complaints with the way this discussion was handled in fandom, and specifically the discussion that was “for the sake of survivors” and “for the sake of terezi” and “against abuse-apologism”, thus the discussions that i should be grateful for, since it’s totally for my sake, but just happen to not be. 

in a way, that’s worse than “it’s all terezi’s fault for being such a bitch” and etc, because these people are obviously assholes, while the people who proudly advocate for me, while in the same breath telling me i’m bad for feeling what i feel (see also: the first comments and reblogs omg lol, that was fast) believe they are doing it for people like me & the good cause, which is just so, wow. 

(and this is not even going into how terezi made a clear distinction between vengeance and justice and opposed the former and how imo this was not her enacting vengeance for her own sake, but trying to rectify her ‘failure’ of not having brought gamzee down for his crimes as she might feel was her responsibility, since terezi tends to feel many things are her responsibility)

SO BASICALLY what i’m saying re: survivors and re: terezi is, if you’re a survivor, please have your opinion and your feelings and talk about them or don’t, just, whatever is best for you - and if you’re an ally trying to help, keep in mind that we are not a monolith to base arguments on, and to be careful when talking about/for survivors presumably in the name of survivors but not really i guess? (this actually also is true if you are a survivor, it’s still important to remember that other survivors might feel differently that that’s okay, too). 

like really, people telling me how terezi must have felt and deciding what is respectful or not respectful of terezi are way more upsetting than people who think “what if gamzee was mindcontrolled all along”, because, yeah, what if, so what? terezi’s story is still terezi’s story, at least how i see it.
(but then i really had to learn that my story is my story and does not depend on how people perceive the stories of people who hurt me, idk, that’s sth really important to learn imo)

okay that was a long tangent, sorry. i know you mean well, and you didn’t do all of those things here and when you did you weren’t as gross as i saw other fans being, so please don’t take this as being about you alone, i guess i just accumulated lots of upset about this. 

and now you’re telling me things like “but my other survivor friends told me how that’s okay to do though” and “i don’t want to talk about this at all any more”, 
or you’re telling me how for some people gamzee-as-villain is non-negotiable, as if that was what i was trying to negotiate in that post the first place? i wasn’t. 
(people’s right to find gamzee non-negociably terrible is non-negotiable i’ve always been with you on that)

and i mean i really don’t want to start huge drama over this, and i totally understand not wanting drama and not wanting to talk more about this, 

but a) the feeling i’m getting is that we as survivors are used as ammunition for discussions over fandom things *as long as our opinion is convenient*, 
and still are, like, still now, 

and b) i feel this is a valuable discussion to have in a fandom - how we treat ‘survivors’ in discussions.
and i feel that if it reaches even some people who might reconsider the next time they use survivors as object for their arguments, maybe without noticing, and they go “oh, wait, stop, maybe i should rather not”, then a lot is won, you know? 

that’s why i’m talking about this, in the hope to improve that toxic atmosphere a bit, even if i realise that i’m also making people uncomfortable even bringing up that issue.
idk i hope it makes sense and sry for being so pushy about this, i just feel - either i let it slide but then i’ll be all bitter and complainy, or i just go confrontation mode and complain directly, which is better i guess! 

5 months ago with 500,022 notes
#harry potter












and in that moment, the entire movie theater burst into tears

i think this was the moment that made most of us despise umbridge more than voldemort

most of us?! don’t you mean ALL of us?? I don’t think even Voldemort liked this bitch!

No one likes Umbridge.

I heard, one time, a dementor kissed her and IT died

Voldemort committed genocide, but Umbridge dared to be female while she abused her power. 

The point isn’t that Umbridge was worse than Voldemort; it’s that everyone hates her more. And I think it has nothing to do with her being a woman and everything with being the sort of cruel most of us have actually experienced.

I mean, look at Voldemort. He’s basically Wizard Hitler, which is, obviously, an incredibly terrible thing to be. But most people—especially the younger people in Harry Potter’s target audience—have not had their parents murdered by a xenophobic cult leader. Nor have they fought for their lives against giant snakes, been kidnapped for dark rituals, or watched numerous friends die in front of them. Voldemort’s crimes are numerous, but they’re distant and fantastical, like hearing about a serial killer on the news.

But they have had that one teacher who inflicts extra punishments just because they don’t like you. They’ve complained to parents and authorities only to be ignored. They’ve sat through pointless classes and been silenced when they criticize. Umbridge is that teacher we all hated because she made our lives miserable and we were powerless to stop her. And as we grow out of school, there are still people in positions of power who act like her. The manager who denies your schedule requests and penalizes you for invented infractions. That customer who complains to corporate because their scam didn’t work, and the corporate decision to listen to their story. Cops performing illegal searches because they know you don’t have any proof.

Yes, torturing and killing numerous people is worse than terrorizing a handful of schoolchildren, but Voldemort is the bad guy in a fairy tale. Umbridge is personal.

Also, hey guys?

Umbridge is a torturer. She tortures people on-page. Her “punishment” for disagreeing with her is to carve words on the back of your hand, forcing you to use your own blood to write your lines. That? Is torture. That? Is abuse. That? Is violence..

She’s not just “mean”. She’s not just “unfair”. She is evil and she’s abusive, and she empowers the evil and abusive and then she tells the victims that it’s all their fault for disobeying her as she tries to gaslight them.

SHE TRIED TO MURDER A TEENAGE BOY, using Dementors as her weapons.

As demonstrated in the seventh book, the only thing stopping her from being Voldemort is she’s a coward who has to work within the rules. She will later happily oversee the abuse and torment of hundreds of witches and wizards and will be so happy to do so that her Patronus is a glowing little happy-cat so strong that she can’t even feel a room full of Dementors right next to her.

I don’t actually hate Umbridge worse than Voldemort, and her moment throwing out Trelawney was far from the moment I “started” hating her, because I hated her just fine long before that. But I have a contempt and a disgust for Umbridge that outweighs my contempt and disgust for Voldemort simply because of how she fits into society and how she uses it for her own ends, and how she justifies her actions. Voldemort at least comes right out and says that power-for-power’s-sake is the only real thing in the universe. When he kills you, it’s because he has the power to do so and wants to, and that’s all there is to it - he’ll even crow about that.

Umbridge? Umbridge tortures you and then tells you it’s your fault she’s doing it. She does this on. the damn. page.

So no, guys. Let’s not minimize Dolores Umbridge to the manager who denies your schedule requests. She’s of the same kind of evil, but a rather greater scale.

I will always reblog this because the commentary is so thoughtful and flawless.


I always found it so interesting how she was fully backed by both regimes. Presumably she had a long ministry career before she got to Hogwarts, had her ideas (like anti-werewolf legislation) supported and validated by other people long before Voldemort took over. She had real, sneaky societal power that went unchallenged for probably decades. She’s has to work within the rules, which limits her (although she clearly has no problem stepping outside the rules when she’s not getting her way within them), but doing that also protects her - she’s difficult to challenge because she can hide behind technicalities and the power to rewrite the rules so they suit her best, which makes it extremely easy for her to gaslight and deflect accusations.

That’s it for me, that she built the bulk of her power with government support.

7 months ago with 20 notes
#kingdom hearts



quintessentialverbalized replied to your post: whhhhhhhhhat if everybody…

Wols Wols I have Theories about this can I tell you about my Theories

omg yes always please

DEEP INHALE oh god here it goes.

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